My Food Porn Sensation

I had the most delicious, big, juicy, firm, sweet, tantalizing, succulent and ripe serum all in my mouth on yesterday. I made love to it so passionately making moans and groan sounds vibrating within my body, trembles cascading right down to my toes.  I started tapping my foot on the floor and humming, as I inserted it inside my mouth. I suddenly became jealous of my own tongue, being able to take all the girth and deep throat all of its components, until it dissolved inside my belly. The best part is the pit. It holds the last residue of the sweet meat. The only thing you can do is suck it real hard, lightly using your teeth, not to aggressive, but a softly graze, getting all of its meat. Oops, I got a little greedy I got some sticky serum left on the corner of my mouth, but doesn’t worry I’ll lick it off, mmmm… delicious. Was it good for your like it was for me? I hope so because mangos are healthy for you.

Did you get a little hot for a moment? Lol. This how we should have a relationship with our food that is good for you and to you. Food should be thought of as a lover in a HEALTHY relationship. It should be able to nourish your needs, be fulfilling, and acquiring good taste, satisfying your hunger, helping you to maintain healthy thoughts, keeping your body active and beautiful and the most importance keeping you sensually happy.  I don’t want to bore you with details about food being unhealthy because you already know that, right? Absolutely you know, so it’s about writing about the fun, juicy stuff.

But first, what is food porn? Well, food porn is a masterpiece of a sexy, architect ensemble of picturesque food blended with texture, contrasting colors, delicious décor and opulent presentation that is breathtakingly fabulous. It’s a sensuous palette for all your senses to coordinate a dance of exuberant delight.  It’s the ostentation of wealthy ingredients that may have traveled internationally or locally homegrown in the deep rich soil to accommodate a great meal.  Or it can be simple fruits and vegetables that are ripen with vibrant rich colors mist with wet, hydrated droplets to assure you the best quality of fresh food.  When you finally see the finish production, you’ll see the most tantalize sensual relationship commingling together harmoniously.  It’s the capture of beautiful essence. You didn’t know eating healthy food can be so freaky.

Eating healthy can be fun and sensual; the excitement to have many assorting choices of healthy food is easier to find in your local stores or Farmer’s Market. Many people have different variants what eating healthy ought to be like being omnivores, vegan, vegetarian, fruitarian or raw food, which ever one resonates with your needs, that’s your choice. However, it stills need to be healthy with the freshest food possible.

The preparation is the fun part just asks Shelly Chapman, she’s into food porn, also. She is known as The Food Relationship Coach. I love looking at her blog fill with allured fascination of mouth-watering goodness that leaves you insatiable because you just want more. I sometimes browse through her food portfolio in secret, maybe I’m a closet food porn freak. What Shelly shows and other respectable chef artist that food can be sexy and healthy.

The most important aspect of healthy living is eating.  The first thing I had to do to change my relationship with food. I found the enjoyment in preparing my meals. I take the disciple to make sure my food choices are right for me and nourishing to my body. I research to learn more about the food I consume, to see what the benefits are for my wellbeing. I love walking into a Farmer’s Market smelling the fresh herbs, fruits and different spices that permeates in its own location. I love aromatic smells of ginger, strawberries, cilantro, peaches, and other wonderful aroma. I love the smell when garlic and onions are good together it has a richness of power. When I’m juicing, I love putting my juice inside a wine glass.  I love eating with chop sticks. I love different types of marinating sauces to experience different flavors. I love learning new healthy dishes.  I have a sensual connection with my food.

I don’t find it pleasing to be stagnating with food, just eating the same old, measly food. The best place to go is to a Farmer’s Market or a place that have many variety of specialize food. Walk through the aisle smell, touch and taste food, if allowed and become familiarize with different type food. You don’t need to be afraid of new potential food, it’s not going to bite, remember you doing all the biting, it’s just going to make you feel special.  I what I like to do is research recipes to become experience of tasting new seasoning, herbs and spices. It can be that simple… a change. This can make your decision for healthier choices seem rather attractive, instead of being just plain.

Well, since I spoke about my provocative relationship with my mango, allow me to introduce you to my favorite friend.  Mangos originated in East India, Burma and the Andaman Islands bordering the Bay of Bengal. Persian traders took the mango into the Middle East and Africa, from there the Portuguese brought it to Brazil and the West Indies. Mango cultivators arrived in Florida in the 1830's and in California in the 1880's. The mango is known as the 'king of fruit' throughout the world, and The Mango tree is a symbol of love. That’s my kinda fruit!!!  It also has other health benefits. Mangoes really can make you feel better, rich in vitamins, anti-oxidants & minerals. Mangoes contain an enzyme with stomach soothing properties similar found in papayas. These comforting enzymes act as a digestive aid and can be held partially responsible for that feeling of contentment. So, no wonder I had a sensual relationship with my mango. It was meant to be. There are so many recipes and other documented facts about mango you may enjoy. 

Here’s a salad mango recipe you may enjoy, very simple to make:

1 or 2 mangoes

Handful of cilantro (a new herb I just started to use in recipe)

Shallots or red onions

2 squeeze lemon and zest

Red peppers

Olive oil

Salt and pepper, to taste

Just mixed all ingredients together and chilled in refrigerator for 8 hours or overnight, to let marinate… Delicious!!! 

What are some of your favorite food that make you feel sensual and sexy?

Fit, Curve beautifully Carve presents: Denise Lipscomb

Today sensual sistah feature is Denise Lipscomb. If you ever heard the term your body is your temple, well Denise, will make your temple look subtly smooth, organically fresh, sweet smelling and a nibble magnet just in case someone may want take a little bite. She has that homegrown, earthy personality that gives you the warmth of a good friend. I’ve only known her from facebook, but her charismatic charm brings you back for her whimsical status update that brings you some sisterly love advice.

All women loves to be pamper, going to the spa getting a massage, but sometimes it may not be in our budget for a luxurious splurge. We also love fragrances that will lure in the atmosphere that will capture our sensuality, as we walk by haunting you for wanting more of that goodness. So when Denise creatively names her product, “Oh My Goddess”, it arrested that same essence of beauty.

I asked Denise, What inspire you to make the product? Denise says, for as long as I can remember commercial skin care products were never friendly to my skin. I come from a family of herbalist, healers and lovers. For years I have made, mixed and created potions and lotions; however, I only gave them away as gifts or to people who were dealing with some sort of ailment.

One day I just decided to put them on the market. My products are appropriate for all skin types; however, my hair products are geared toward black people with natural hair. You asked how they make my skin feel? My skin feels so good I can't help but rub my own booty at night. lol. So many different fragrances from sweet to earthy give my man a definite treat!

My secret ingredient is love. However, my body buttas are a blend of Shea Butter, Jojoba Oil, Kukui Nut Oil, Sweet Almond and Essential Oils.

Oh My Goddess is truly Grass Roots. I would love to see my product line soar; however, I never desire that it get so big that I am forced to add harmful chemicals and preservatives. So you know....I'm not trying to go into mass production unless the product can remain pure. Honestly, I just desire to pour LOVE into what I do. The product has a line of Goddess Soaps, Healing Elixirs, Body Buttas, SugaScrubs & Salt Glos; recently I have added a Hair Butta, Hair Soap and Hair & Skin Conditioner.

Love in a Bottle! The Healing Energy of a Woman can energize and elevate ANYthing we touch.

For a Fit, Curvy beautifully Carve woman this product can surely be an awesome treat after our daily exercising. We always need to keep our skin beautiful. Skin is the biggest organs on our body. So lest keep that skin glowing and kissable.

For more information on Denise Lipscomb and products vist:

Oh My Goddess website

Oh My Goddess facebook

Sensual Friday: The Human Touch

I was listening to Kem song “Human Touch” and thought how the tactile of a touch can be a signs of wanting, liking, engaging and just sensually sweet. It’s the moment of surrendering all thoughts of menial contemplation and just being strictly presence. Touch is like a serenade of violin strings orchestrating a jazzy assemble on your body playing Dizzy, Sonya, heaven Miles between your thighs. It’s a rhythm of collided fingers mapping every curves and peak on a silhouette road. The closeness of another human is comfort and utterly captivated. Your energetic body becomes animate with every meridians and chakra being expose in an illuminative explosion of secretion.

When you are in a relationship, touch is essential. Without touch different wonderment of thoughts will leave a person feeling insecure. Touch represents nurturing, love, caring, intention, attentiveness and security. A simple touch can be spontaneously enriched by being surprise. A unexpected touch from behind while washing dishes; a unexpected touch while being in the presence of friends and relative; a unexpected touch while driving in your car or a unexpected touch by your favorite crush. It’s a satisfy meal for any occasion. It’s just the warmth of a person hand that can take you to ecstasy. The rich, opulence of ingrain electrical shocks circulating inside your body is orgasmic.

Human touch is part of our culture as homo sapiens. It’s our greeting card. We touch each other everyday. We use it to greet people by a hug or shaking hands. We use it to flirt with someone by touching their hair, knees, and shoulder. We use it while we are dancing a tease of the ass, hands around the waist or just a full assembly of body movement. We use it for general affection.

In some culture like in Africa, touch is about grooming and healing. Women in the village would groom each other hair. The woman would sit in-between the leg of the braider, while sharing whimsical playfulness and womanly love. It’s a gathering to express things about life, situational matters and about men…lol. It is also use my many witch doctors, magical healers, shamans, and other that deals with energy healing that sometime the touch can be faint, but still felt inside the body. Mothers use healing touches for their baby. If the baby had a respiratory congestion, the mother would rub the chest area to break-up any mucus. A sensual massage is great to circulate any stagnate energy in the body.

We need touch like we need food and water. Babies need constants touch for stimulation to keep their body system healthy, emotional balance and safe. Without the essential of touch we would emotionally die and sometimes a physical death. This can create dishearten, angry, aggressive person to live unhappily. These people can claim havoc upon other people’s lives. They become takers not givers, which mean they can rob you. They become hateful not loving, which means they can fight you. They become aggressive not pleasant, which mean they don’t satisfy you sexually. They become fearful not secure, which means they can kill you.

It doesn’t have to be with someone else. A touch can come from your self; self loving your own body. The curvy woman sometimes forgets to adore her body at that moment. While we are in transition, we should always have a celebratory moment when we see chances within our body. Celebrate the small details of your victory. When you starting see muscle lines, curves contouring, skin clearing up and changes overall. Touch that area. Love that area. Caress that area. Give thanks to that area. Some curvy women my have swollen, painful leg pains, or dark areas that blood is not able to circulate properly, take special attention and care to those area, as well. This will boost your sensuality IQ up exponentially. This is the healthiest time to be appreciative of your work and decision to become fit and healthy.

What are some things you do for yourself to make you feel special? Have you ever had an unexpected touch that was pure ecstasy? Do share some of your own touch experience.

Fit, Curve beautifully Carve presents: Diva Mama Tonya

We have another sensual sistah to share with you all. Tonya K. FreemanTonya K. Freeman is affectionately known as Diva Mama Tonya around people that know her essence. That name carries brilliance of a wise woman; if you ever spoken to her in person, virtually spoken to her on face book or glimpse at her sexy aura, your energy shall become illuminative aroused. She will make you come to her presence as a wondrous child searching for the authentic truth. You’ll become astutely engage, as she, spew out ancient wisdom from our ancestor’s oratorical vault, while sitting circularly around a matriarch axis. Her voice will transcend you as she will dance, sing and chant old hymns of Goddess rhythm.

I came in connect with, Diva Mama Tonya, in the good ole’ fashionable way, Facebook, I saw her profile picture and said wow, interesting. I’m thinking interesting because she had an intriguing beauty. Her face is captivating mixed with vanilla crème and sandy brown complexion depending how the sun capture her spirit, a kissable bald, softly rub head and some passionate red lipstick…POW!!! That’s what you called stylin’ and proflin’, baby!!! She has this bold presence, as if, you wasn't liberating enough; but still gives you this confident that you can be. Of course, I read her description; she is a Visionary, Motivational Speaker, Recording Artist and Author. Her other interests are spirituality, sacred sexuality and feminine sexy vibes and as well a gatekeeper of wise women that is consider as woman shaman. When she befriends me, she welcomed me like coming to a women gathering and I’m the invited guest. She always has a friendly effervescence appeal around Facebook checking on you to see if you’re okay.

She loves woman affectionately. What I mean, she caress with her marvelous voice of sweet, but assertive granular that speaks maturation of love, wisdom and courage; teaches us the superlative way of being a feminine woman, our nurturing fragrance, our sacred moon cycle, how to dance sensually and openly, being a healer, being a lover, being sovereign woman and being unapologetic.

As a Fit, Curve beautifully Carve women these are the essential of becoming well-balance spiritual woman. We have to gain our sensuality to grow align with our spiritual bodies, as well our physical bodies. We are the ancient keepers, nurturer of life and the womb factory of creativity. Lest celebrate our femininity living more blissfully. We are more than just a scale number.

Tonya K. Freeman Bio

Diva Mama Tonya, as she is affectionately known, has been working diligently towards encouraging women to become more empowered by embracing their natural womanly cycles.

She is devoted to inspiring women along their path in blissfully reclaiming their Ancient Power.

Focused on spreading her message of empowerment through spoken word performances and speaking engagements, Dr Freeman is also an ordained inter-faith minister; has doctorate degrees in divinity, metaphysics and motivation through the Universal Life Church; is a certified Aromatherapist; a Reiki/Karuna Ki Master; and an Ancient Femi9 Wisdom Keeper; Inner Growth Consultant; Harmonic Infusion Practitioner; and Diva Advocate with over 30 years of transformational work with women.

Raised in the Village of Harlem, New York and utilizing her early parochial education, plus her love of reading and research, Dr Freeman excelled as a self-taught individual with a mind always open to learning, sharing and new experiences. These factors, along with her winsome personality, have placed her in demand as a seminar/workshop leader and as a motivational speaker to those who have had the opportunity to meet and hear her. Fun loving and possessing a zest for life, she possesses a gift which enables her to connect with persons from all walks of life.

She is now creating dancing meditation/visualization CD's where each track is a 10-12 minute workout. Here is the link to explore and listen to the samples as well as download one track http://tonyakfreeman.com/ if you want to get your sexy, spiritual dance on get this CD. Movement helps generate positive energy through out your body. You can use this to manifest whatever your desires deserve.



She also has a tonya and friends fan page to check other phenomenal women in her circle.

Here you can listen to archives and interviews
from women who walked in the journey of womanhood.

Her personal blog to get more info.

You can download listen to samples and purchase her CD's.


A few videos of our feature sensual sistah

Sensual Friday: Let Me

Yesterday on Facebook, Floacist video was floating around different people wall, so I’m wondering what the spectacle was about this video. “Let Me”, is the name of the song and let me tell you sensual sistahs that video is HOTT!!!! Floacist did an outstanding job display her sensual femininity. The color scheme had a midnight, majestic, exotic experience under the Dark Goddess moonlight that sparkle her shimming golden body. She also had a male to play her lover to accentuate her sexual play.

This video reminded me of DeAngelo’s, video “How Does it Feels”, when he was naked, well illusively. You remember sensual sistahs, sweat falling down his v-shape pelvic, way down only our imagination can withhold...mmmhumm. Floacist had that same similar experience. I always ponder could a woman ever demonstrate something more on the sexy level, without being too pornographic. Well, our sensual sistah Floacist did!!! She was semi-nude. Everything was exposing except her nipples and her yoni. Her nipples were cover with pasties and wore a skinny thong. Even though they were cover, the illusive imagination still wanders, if she was REALLY naked at the bottom. It sometimes became a chameleon taking your mind there. It was a great creatively optical.

But I love the most of her intimate play with her co-star. How can I forget what a great eye candy he is? His physic was a diamond that you didn’t mind rubbing just to get that shine. The chemistry between them was magnetically adorned with lust. This video had a beautiful tantric feel roaming through all aspects of “LET ME”. How can a man resist a woman sensually asserting her self to let her make love to you? Sharing her pleasurable gifts to be explorative and sexually giving; moving her body methodically slow just so you can salivate for her even more; being a true divine Goddess to emulate the ancient Goddess mannerism; accentuating her body to curve around like a slithering snake. It just absolutely beautiful is being a woman. How to love every beautiful curve you have? Today be inspire to have that, “Let Me” moment to make someone feel special.



And just for fun for balance:

Fit, Curve and Beautifully Carve Feature: Jamilla Aimamet-t Manigault

I had the pleasure to me Jamilla maybe 3 yrs. back on MySpace. She was very intriguing to me. Why I was so intrigue was her profile picture. Her profile name on MySpace was Queen Huney and she had on this green dress posing in front of a tree. She was not just only posing, she was sensually teasing the tree with her allured back-sided, while her hands entwined like a kundalini snake. I was interested to know her and what she’s about. At this time I was on my own sensual journey and was attracted to other sensual women to learn things about myself, we are the reflection of each other, aren’t we? So I ponder on her page and she had all these beautiful pictures of herself. It wasn’t anything erotic, but more a lifestyle that was comfortable for her. I was like wow, I want to be like that!!! Overtime she has grown into a business woman; teaching other women and men to live sensually.


Jamilla Manigault is the founder of the Free Life Association which includes the widely popular, dynamic, and transformational Dripping Bliss Sensual Healing Services. Jamilla is a world renowned sensual, sexual, and life coach, sexual health educator, behavioral health specialist, a trained dancer, and healer.

Jamilla has studied the amazing and healing power of sexual energy, the keys to an amazing multi-orgasmic sex life, impeccable sexual health and boundless sexual energy and power, and the time honored secrets to a fulfilling, bliss filled life for the past 10 years.


She is at the top of her field and has an incredible gift and passion in coaching and guiding people towards creating lives they desire and experiencing the wonder and beauty that they are. She has totally transformed the lives of thousands of people, young and old, across the globe.

Jamilla celebrates her sensuality and loves to empower, inspire, and teach others to celebrate themselves, live fulfilled lives, regulate breath, enjoy intimacy and allow their sexual energy to freely flow. She lives what she teaches and lives in state of bliss every day and is passionate about teaching people how to do the same.

She is available for conducting workshops, seminars, and special events. Her passion, expertise, and interactive style add a powerful and unique dynamic to any event. Be sure to schedule her for your next event!

Jamilla will also be here in Atlanta Feb.12,2011 4:00-7:00p.m for the Pleasure Power and Tantric Seminar. You can purchase your tickets here:

Tantric bliss

The Fit,Curve and Beautifully Carve ladies believe in Laws of Attraction. When we are transforming our life our sexual energy becomes more sensitive and enliven. While carving out your curves, you will become even more sensual and attracting infinite possibilities to whatever you desire. You will allow those things to happen and only accept the things that will benefit your personal growth, relationships, creative ideals and businesses. If there’s an obstacle or barrier find solutions or just don’t accept it and keep it flowing. It’s that simple. But do accept the divine gifts Jamilla is providing for your sensual transformation.

Here's more links to follow Jamilla:

TheCoochiChurch



Facebook

Dripping Bliss

Orgasmicbreakthrough

A Weight loss tip: Goal vs. Desire

I came across this video that discusses the difference between goals and desire. After pondering on the topic for a moment, I thought it was very insightful and poignant. When we embark on a goal, it’s more structural and goal oriented. We have an immediate reaction to start a new productive lifestyle. This determination will resolute stagnate problems to become more enrich, enlighten and have a prosperous life. Goals are excellent to have to make you accountable to help you surpass your achievement. But it can also be trite and bland checking off every item on your grocery list. Well, in a hilarious way, that’s the comparison of checking off a list and checking it twice… who wants to live in a business suit type of personality... a big BLAH!!!!!





I rather have a bikini type of personality. You see, desire is contrastive from a boring goal. Desire is an orchestrated joy that you want to operate the love wheel turning in every directional pleasure. Desire is incredibly delicious drooling the taste of “wanting”. It captivates the allure and beauty for life to be purposeful and joyous. Desire is being engage with menial moments to lead up the BIGGER moments. You will be enlivened with creative ideals always being receptive to infinite possibilities to grow happily sensuous. Now that’s my type of transformation.

Weight loss is not just physical but also spiritual and mental. It’s a lifestyle base. Changing your life doesn’t have to become a goal that is WRITTEN inside a note pad, it’s to be a CREATIVE ACTIVATION being program in your daily lifestyle. It doesn’t always have be a step by step situation, but a rhythmic dance that goes through peaks and valley. Weight loss doesn’t need to be dreadful, but it can be fun and sexy watching your life transforming what you desire to become.

So lest make a desirous list that can be practical to use everyday, to every moment of your sensuous transformation. Here is mine in particular order.

My Desires…

1. To live sensually free
2. To become prosperous
3. To be sexually empowered
4. To be inquisitive to learn more
5. To write erotic poetry
6. To enjoy blissful sex
7. To dance to the rhythm of life
8. To walk with a posterior feminine walk
9. To never denied my self happiness
10. To sometimes indulge in rich tasty deserts
11. To give hugs and pleasure
12. To give great massages to my self and other
13. To look more pleasant
14. To engage more with people
15. To be submissive to my thoughts
16. To honor the feminine Goddess
17. To be with my twin flame
18. To love myself
19. To love you
20. BEING

Exercise and Sexual Attractiveness part1

Sexual Attractiveness is what makes sexual energy recognizable to see, taste, hear, touch and smell by using our sensuality. We can identify it as feminine energy or masculine energy. That’s the mutual attractions of the opposite sex. Sensuality is the soil of your foundation that has many aspects of a sexual being. Sexual attractiveness is the most potent in relationship because it stems from sexual energy. This help you attract whatever you deserve in a mate, business, spiritually, and physically.

Most time we figure that our looks are the source of attraction; it’s only a fraction. It’s not the only thing that contributes to your well-being. If you become obsessive only with your looks, it will become destructive. We have all gone through some desperate way to lose weight. Sometimes it can be drastic change through plastic surgery, gastric bypass and innumerable fad diets; these type of choices leads to devastation, heartache, and financial constraint, but very popular. If your physical attractiveness was the only thing, then everyone would be happy with themselves. There are numerous of beautiful woman exist, but not everyone process sexual attractiveness. The truth be told, beauty is from within your sexual feminine energy. You look beautiful from within; the outside will reflect that effortlessly. Ponder on this, when you eat healthy you will lose weight without saying you are. That’s just one of the incentives. If losing weight was it, then everyone would be satisfied. Sexual attractiveness acts the same way.

Even though, a few people are tapped in by default because maybe their environment help them establish that attribute, but still they don’t know how to tap into that energy, directly. Through our sensual senses we are connected to the infinity of life. If a person cannot touch, taste, smell, hear or see they will be totally unconscious. Conscious is developing through sensuality. Reconnected with your senses will allow to know yourself better. We have different perception of ourselves through family, friends and religion. Sometimes our real thoughts are basically view from other people’s perceptions. Connecting with your senses will help you see more details than just seeing the bigger picture.

This is a very concentrated energy that pulls from your navel where most of your sexual energy is stored. This attraction is about “attracting” your desire, joy and passion with life. Exercising is the portal that defines, accentuates, illuminate, and activate every cells of your body. This consists on breathing, body movements, healthy eating and also positive thoughts. This will be a part 2 on this subject as I breakdown the alchemy of true healthy sexual healing through exercise, which is cause of all of our dis-ease problems, relationships, economics and sexual perception.

I’m learning these techniques, through my own weightless journey. I’ m always self-discovering about sensuality and the power that births every infinite possibilities.

First the Flower then the Fruit

How can you have so much love but anger as well? I ask this question because it’s the duality of a constant fight. The only determination is what emotion will win the war or become a more dominant residence inside my spirit. I was watching a video, the other day, of one of my divine, luscious friend’s in telling insights about gardening. It was one particular, profound statement he mentions several times over that made me ponder even further to my question; he mentioned, first the flower than the fruit. This was echoing back to me; first the flower than the fruit, as though it was speaking to me directly to my heart. The story goes; the flower will bloom than fall off; right after that the budding of the fruit will start to develop. So even, nature goes through to some duality, a double process of elimination or a least have some balance of the two.

But even, processing this thought of love and anger is a weary combination, especially when you are sabotaging yourself of a fulfill life. I’m trying to figure out this anger that has a quiet rumbling sound. It’s that type of anger that sneaks up behind you; then strikes without even knowing the culprit’s face; it happens so fast with no warning; which can be deadly, if you are not aware. I have become more aware of this lately, but now it’s about time to find the root cause of this crazy madness.

Well let’s describe how my anger operates in my life and how it mirrors it back to me. Most anger can be very rebellious from a dangerous construction. This type of anger intends to be more intense and fiery. The individual may be corrupted by the system; being promiscuous; abusing drugs and alcohol; rotating back to jail; having no respect for the authorities or elders; and being combative and confrontational towards people who’s undeserving for that type of behavior. If I behave in that matter, it would be obvious that I am angry, wouldn’t it? I’m not saying I haven’t use some tactics of outburst but it wouldn’t be my distinctive behavior in the norm. My anger is more internal. It shows up in my insecurities, my weight and love life. The way this happen someone could be pursuing their life’s goal, you congratulate them on their endeavors, but then you feed yourself negative talk about how you are a failure or loser because you haven’t endure in your life’s purpose. People may not know your personal struggles; they are just being themselves enjoying life. This anger is only a reflection where you are lacking in your journey. You may find a guy that has all the qualities that you love that suits you, divinely. Perhaps, you’ll say I’m not good enough for him; I’m not smart enough to carry a conversation; pretty enough; fine enough or whatever. I’ve gone through many scenarios I have mentioned above. I have self-sabotaged a lot of opportunities.

Most of this anger is resentment towards both my parents. I never dealt with the divorce as a child, the separation from my father, distance from my brother, not being a family and other things that I would not mention in this blog, maybe only when it’s necessary. I was always nonchalant and aloof about the situations. I thought I was ok because I wasn’t rebelling. I told you this silent anger will creep up on you. I’ve been carry this anger for 30 something years…wow!!!!

The love has been there, also. Even though, I may have resented my parents, but I love them, too. I love how I had a different type of relationship with my parents and siblings. I’m the youngest of three. I got treated a little different. I wasn’t spoil…ok, maybe a little, but I wasn’t a spoil brat. I just knew I was loved. That love evaporated to all my teachers at school; I formulated great bonds from neighborhood friends and had some beautiful connection with everyone, even the school janitor. I love the way my siblings had my back, when sometimes I got on punishment; and couldn’t go outside, so as soon my parents left from work…that’s right…I was out playing with my friends; they never knew it. I love the way how my brother and I always make fun of each other; sticking my tongue at him, taking each other things from each other, but it was all love and funny. I love the way my sister nurture me, while my mom was at work; braiding my hair; helping me with my clothes; hanging out with her older friends, even though, I may have gotten on her nerves. It was just your typical older and younger sister drama. I love when I went to church with my mom; go grocery shopping together, sitting inside the buggy; and just being around her presence, but she will whoop that ass…pop!!!! While my mother was more of the disciplinary, my father was a little easier. He seems to always want to protect me, sometimes over-protective and domineering to other people, when it came to his children. His presence made me feel safe as a child. I do wonder, if things were different, how life would be now for me. I guess that would be another topic.

Through some reminiscing, I learn I have love. I feel love everywhere. I become attach to those emotions. It can come from any remote places like T.V. when a kiss is shared; a loving bond is shared, even though, everything else seems script but in that moment of love it becomes optimistic; being in presence of love; the fun-loving love; hearing a loving conversation and love gestures between lovers; a loving family structure and many inspiring, loving attributes. There is always anticipation according to love that one day it can happen for you. I certainly can identify it, where as, most people have forgotten.

First the flower than the fruit is synonymous for our life entrance in tune with nature’s vibration. A garden which bears the flower has its own internal vibrational energy system. It’s the feminine energy that holds the mysterious information of the budding fruit. It set a divine tone and orchestra the flow of the garden. It determines how successful your fruits will be for harvesting. It lives in dark matter inside the black soil, trying to process the conscious of the seed; the infinite thoughts of life. It’s the passion of sensuality connected to the sun’s energy. It’s the energy that is put into action. The flower becomes the nurturer, feeding the nutrients and attracting bees for its nectar to make the bud stronger. The flower knows its life purpose to do all of the necessities to accomplish a goal. The flower sets a strong foundation to build upon. It’s also easier to look for any potential danger that may stump the bud’s full potential. My divine friend said, he intentionally allow some weeds to grow within the garden to attract insects. The insect will eat the weed, but not the impending fruit. Sounds like a big orgy everything is getting ….pleased. ..mmmmmmmm. The flower is a labor of love, water it with passion and it becomes sensuous receiving all good intentions; raising its sexual energy.

I like this kind of love what the garden demonstrates, externally. This brings me purpose and a desire to become my full budding self. I’m starting to formulate the flower’s behavior because it represents feminine energy. I’m like the lotus flower that blooms under muddy waters and then emerge in the morning under the loving sun. It kisses my naked body expose without shame. It’s freedom. That’s how I want to feel, internally.

Anger is not a bad thing; it’s the volume of anger. Anger is equal to passion because of its overpowering nature. Even though, it’s powerful you can attract that anger and attention for humanity, working for an important cause. It’s the weed that needs to find balance that will benefit for a right purpose.
I’m still growing and learning…always.

Childhood Sensuality

There is something intriguing about being a woman and other feminine energy that encompass sensuality. I notice, when I see something sexy or sensuous, I become aroused not sexually but excited. It’s that innate feeling that you are connected to your sexual vibration; your true authenticity. Women has a mystic factor that contribute to all living organism to their whole well-being, this contribution is the nurturing; it’s the love; it’s the affection; it’s the sweet nectar of energy; it’s the oceanic rapture of our water, when you become thirsty; it’s the balance of feminine and masculine energy and the connection of the Universal Power; the Cosmic Mother.

Over my adolescent years, I wanted to learn the existence in sexiness. I am interested in the movement, inner beauty; that essential mystery of sexiness. When I’m feeling down or despair, I know something beautiful attract me and make me feel better. It puts a smile on my face, for some reason. It makes me feel alive, juicy and striking. It’s a divine honor being a woman. It gives an underlying power that is very subtle, but grows very intensely. There is one factor that most women don’t think about, that is type of energy, your sexual energy; stems from your belly. This is the storage of your energy power, but your yoni/vagina help generate that movement. It’s a pondering feeling of warmth that conquest all over your body. I’ve never been this type of woman before, but it seemingly has always been there.

I remember being a little girl; I was always carefree, while other things bad were going on. I had confident; I was much wiser beyond my years, smart, intelligent and love being around my elders. I wasn’t a girlie girl, per say, but I always wore dresses. People always assume I was a Jehovah Witness, whatever that means, but I never really thought about it, though. Maybe, I just like wearing dresses, who knows?

I came from a Christianity background. We never discuss anything about sexuality. I was very captivated about sex, as a child, though; sneaking looking at porno, only through the wiggly lines, if you had cable. That’s when the Playboy channel was popular, even if you couldn’t get the clarity of the Playboy channel, you still got particle of some footage. I could only get a glimpse at the prospects. I did witness the sound effects of different moans and groans. It was something excited about the
vibration that connects with my sexuality.

I also remember playing hide-go-get. This exploration was so lustful and lighthearted and the infatuated sound of your childish moans and groans was wonderful. Having guys feeling on your butt; rubbing against your body; using their hands exploring different surfaces around your anatomy, I guess we all was looking at the wiggly lines and playing the roles. But most of these innocent, playful caresses were done in clothes.

My favorite pastime is kissing; still is presently. I remember my first kiss, when I was in the fourth grade and he was in the seventh grade. We move into an apartment complex, after my mom’s separation. He was my first boy crush. I thought, he was the cutest thing, ever. He also had a sister that was a little younger than me, so she was my playmate. I always went over to their house, but they couldn’t come outside, though, because their mom was working. So we use to play with the screen door open, they were still in the house, while I was outside, but we manage to play creatively. Over time my crush and I got more acquainted getting to know each other. As I, I’m writing this blog, I think that was my first initial tantric moment. We always sat in a lotus position in front of a screen, touching our hand against the screen, trying to get some vibration; having our childlike intimate moments. I thought I was in love. Yeah, it was that deep. We always talk about kissing each other and how it would feel. Finally that day had arrived, when we was to encounter our first kiss. When you know, this is it, you start to get butterflies in your stomach, but now I know this your sexual energy awaken. After pacing, stepping back and forth; teasing the moment; palms sweating; little sister in the background laughing. At last, WE DID IT!!!!! It was quick and painless. It was very sweet, considering we were so young. I think later my crush move out the apartment complex and never seen him again.

As I got older, I notice my sexual energy becoming more mature. While most girls was having sex early during high school; talking about the penis size; giving oral sex; how he sex her hard, I mostly interested in the intimacy aspect. I love the closeness his body; the hand holding; sensuous kissing, slow caressing; intimate conversations. Maybe I was well developing and full figure in high school. I notice most guys weren’t attractive to a figure like mines, but mostly mature boys appreciated my body type. It was easier asking questions about sex from intelligence of maturity. My curious question gave me insight about sex in a physical introspection. I was on this quest about alchemy of sexuality. Learning about this energy that is circulating inside my body and why does it become so intense around a person you’ve become attract to? I knew sex was sacred and spiritual, but I couldn’t articulate back when I was younger.

Right now as a 30 something female, I’m going back to my innocents; back to my childhood; the learning of easy sexuality. This is my emergency rekindling my sacred femininity; Living in my true essence of who I am as a divine woman, co-existing with mother earth; balancing it with the sacred masculine energy. This is my own sacred journey being shared with other divine feminine energy. I have many insecurities, but using this sensual journey to become molded into my ancestral Goddesses. This energy is ripe and ready to be eaten, cultivated, transmuted and transcendence to other level. THE TIME IS NOW!!!!!

The Beginning....

I've been on a healthy journey since Jan. 2008, but I did had some slippage, so I didn't accomplish my goals completely. Instead of just weighloss, I accomplish other things in my life that will help transform me beyond aesthetic reason. THIS IS A JOURNEY NOT A DESINATION. Meanwhile, I'm still processing the weightloss and this time its through "Sexual Energy". That's right "sexual energy". We all have energy inside and sexual energy is the most potent that we all share together. This energy can be cultivated creavtively; sometimes this is called creative energy. This energy can be use to put emphasis on your life that you want to accomplish including weightloss.

This is not a weightloss blog necessarially, but a "wasteloss" to implement good habits to envolve to a better me. Everything is not base on weightloss, some weighloss is not healthy and do more harm then good. Weighloss IS a trinity...BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT. Body (real food and fitness), Mind (attitude), and Spirit (enlightenment). This is a better perspective for a successful wasteloss for superior health.

Sensuality has been a great source to culitivate the mind, body and spirit. The soul is the housing of your emotions, intellect and sensations, while the spirit expand the possible infinities; this is your sexual feeder to help fertilize your creative thoughts to its full capacities. This creative energy is the sexual nature to perpetutate life to existing.

Receptivity is also one of the strongest mechanism that a woman have for her total well-being. Without this mechanism she will not be able to create or receive new ideas, take in love and energy, to be an magnetic force, will be less inspiring for herself and others, non-...sexual, less sensuous, dull, boring and even death. Women are like flowers that needs nuturing, attention, love and acception. That's when we become our best selves to assure your potentialize growth in sex, abundance, being properous, communtity buliding and a loving, balance in relationships and orgasmic, as well.

One thing, I do enjoy is being a Sensuous Woman. This is the main process in my journey. As I mention, sensuality is the foundation to your total essence. This this my journey to grow within; and allowing the blooming petals to erect strongly to receive powerful energy from the universe.

I will share my thoughts, educational material, poetries, healthy food, sacred sexuality and other bearing fruits to help assist me through my journey of sacred bliss.

Yay!!!!, I've just written first blog and more to share....