Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Window Seat

There is a buzz about, Erykah Badu, new video, "Window Seat". In the beginning, she alluded to an historical JFK assassination. She is just casually walking through crowds of people. Then slowly, she starts to take off her clothes layers by layers. OK....she is obvisously taking her clothes off; but to what extent. You sit there in supense, is she really gonna take all her clothes off...really? She gets to that momentum just to her bra and panty, then whoa; she has unlocked her bra strap, then that audacious move; she removed her panty...BAM!!! she is completely butt naked. The look on people faces was shocking and laughable...ha ha. During the end of the video, Erykah assassinate herSELF; but if you look closely, the symbolic blood was written "groupthink" spewing from her head. I'll explain that later.

I knew, when I seen the word "EVOLVING" written across her back; that this was embeded more deeply inside her soul. Erykah Badu has always been complex and completive type of artist. You'll have to love her colorful, unique expressions. I admire anyone who kind express themselves, creatively.

I can resonate with the ideal about the video conception. I have been fearful about alot of things in my life; taking chances, self-doubt, worrying about someone else's opinion, low self-esteem and not loving ME. Mostly, it did stem from my weight.Its good to be asethetically attractive and be presented in a postive light, because we want to attract people, but at what cost. Sometimes we can lose yourselve in the fake images that you have created or not because most of us just like to look good, but there are some people who go the extreme for perfection.

We can conceal our imperfections very well. You can look at a person and be like....DAMN, SHORTY GOTTA ASS ON HUR, SHE FINE ASS HELL OR HE'S FIONE, but when naked, big belly, strectch mark, celluilites, small breast, one testicles, so on, even Kim Kardashin have flaws.She was posing in a magazine and someone showed the un-touch copies that showed her cellulites. Her response was, "so what...that's what curvy girls get". We have to do accept our impefections.

One thing you can never hide is your true self. The truth will always prevails. We have seen it numerous of time, beautiful on the outside, ugly in the inside, insecure,depress,sad, mean-spirited, liar, cheater, ignorant, unclean and the list goes on. These are your characteristics and personalities that can be hidden inside a PERFECT FACADE.

Weighloss can be the biggest facade of them all. For most people weightloss is the answer to everything because its merit is base on apprearance.We use a lot of "if I" games, if I was smaller...I can do this or that, people will like be better, I'll get a man, I'll get a promotion, I'll be more out-going, and many other stipulations on life. Yes weightloss can make you feel better, lift-up your self-esteem a bit, but when your REAL self comes back after your false high, you'll we gain your weight back because you haven't found the root cause. Hell, people have done gastric by-pass and gain there weight back. This is a problem.

Overtime, I became comfortable in my naked body.I had to think like a GODDESS, implementing, self-esteem, self-love, manifesting greatness, health, feel comfortable, holisic, sensual, healthy atttuitude, self-worth, just seeing a GODDESS in the mirror. I focus on my intentions. When I take a show, I use a loofah to exfloliate the dead skin to help circulate the blood flow to all my extremities, giving myself self-massages with oils from head to toe, using shea-butter and different mixture of oils, deep breathing, dancing, reading, writing, listening soothing music, keeping my sexual energy activated. So everytime, I look in the mirror naked, I'm turn on. My " Mind" was changing to start loving SELF. I started implementing good energy inside my body as a ritual.

My "SPIRIT" needed some work also. This is the most important of all because its the real work, most of us avoid the confrontation with yourself. I face the good, the bad and ugly about me. What I really appreicated; that most people are mirrors of YOU. People reflect two things...who you want to be and who you are as a person. There are divinely good people that you admire they show you what you can be. If this part is lacking, then start implementing and displaying the good qualities to your life. If there are people who constantly display negativities, then this is the area that is imaging YOU....this when your changes begins. I'm not perfect but everyday I have real intentions to do better. So I can have that preparations for being somone's wife, someone's mother, someone's lover, someone's friend, just being MY BEST SELF. I'm JUST finding my way...?

This is the whole embodiment of being a WHOLE person; being balance. Who cares what people think about you. So this goes into the "groupthink". Groupthink is the act or practice of reasoning or decision-making by a group, especially when characterized by uncritical acceptance or conformity to prevailing points of view. In my words, its people who will defame, hate, ostracize, conform, censorize people because there difference. Hewl, I didn't know this until this video, but it all makes sense. People can assassinate you mentally, spiritually and physically.

In this ending, just accept who you are, release any fears or negativities and show your naked body....JUST BE LIBERATED!!!!!

Here's an article about, Window Seat...

Monday, March 29, 2010

The Beginning....

I've been on a healthy journey since Jan. 2008, but I did had some slippage, so I didn't accomplish my goals completely. Instead of just weighloss, I accomplish other things in my life that will help transform me beyond aesthetic reason. THIS IS A JOURNEY NOT A DESINATION. Meanwhile, I'm still processing the weightloss and this time its through "Sexual Energy". That's right "sexual energy". We all have energy inside and sexual energy is the most potent that we all share together. This energy can be cultivated creavtively; sometimes this is called creative energy. This energy can be use to put emphasis on your life that you want to accomplish including weightloss.

This is not a weightloss blog necessarially, but a "wasteloss" to implement good habits to envolve to a better me. Everything is not base on weightloss, some weighloss is not healthy and do more harm then good. Weighloss IS a trinity...BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT. Body (real food and fitness), Mind (attitude), and Spirit (enlightenment). This is a better perspective for a successful wasteloss for superior health.

Sensuality has been a great source to culitivate the mind, body and spirit. The soul is the housing of your emotions, intellect and sensations, while the spirit expand the possible infinities; this is your sexual feeder to help fertilize your creative thoughts to its full capacities. This creative energy is the sexual nature to perpetutate life to existing.

Receptivity is also one of the strongest mechanism that a woman have for her total well-being. Without this mechanism she will not be able to create or receive new ideas, take in love and energy, to be an magnetic force, will be less inspiring for herself and others, non-...sexual, less sensuous, dull, boring and even death. Women are like flowers that needs nuturing, attention, love and acception. That's when we become our best selves to assure your potentialize growth in sex, abundance, being properous, communtity buliding and a loving, balance in relationships and orgasmic, as well.

One thing, I do enjoy is being a Sensuous Woman. This is the main process in my journey. As I mention, sensuality is the foundation to your total essence. This this my journey to grow within; and allowing the blooming petals to erect strongly to receive powerful energy from the universe.

I will share my thoughts, educational material, poetries, healthy food, sacred sexuality and other bearing fruits to help assist me through my journey of sacred bliss.

Yay!!!!, I've just written first blog and more to share....